Please don't ever feel that you have the right to judge anyone's story by the chapter you walked in on.
Ten years ago I planned how I was going to make the suffering I was dealing with stop. From an outsider looking in, I had the perfect life. What people didn't understand was the internal & mental battle I was fighting every second of my life. It was exhausting hiding behind a smile. After suffering from postpartum depression three times that seemed to never get better, terrible anxiety, being on too many medicines that made things worse (ever see or hear the warning "may cause suicidal behaviors or thoughts"? ) and seeking professional help I was at loss because things were increasingly getting more difficult for me.
I truly believed my family would be better off without me...today it is hard to even imagine I ever thought or felt that way. For years I carried such shame for feeling & thinking the way I did. People judged me all the time asking how could I let things get that bad or how could I not be happy or grateful for what I had in my life. I was ill, not ungrateful.
I created this video last year on my birthday to spread awareness in hopes people will stop having the audacity of judging others, to pray for those who are or have suffered along with their families & realize how grateful you should be because you have never had to face these demons.
You see me showing up every single day trying to motivate, encourage & be a positive light for others. I have made it my life's mission to not only fight for a healthier & happier life for myself but to bring others along on this journey with me. I know this may not be for everyone, but what if it was? After struggling & feeling hopeless for so many years I finally have all the tools I need to live this life to the fullest.
I will keep sharing my story in hopes those that need this message & those who need the hope that things can always be turned around will be reached. I had to fight very hard to get where I am today. I had to change my thinking, I needed tools in my life that would help me not mask things, I needed daily support along with accountability, daily personal development & I needed to incorporate/learn new daily habits. Never in a million years did I think my job would require these things of me, but it does & I have discovered my purpose here on this earth.
I have my life back. I am finally the woman, wife & mother I so badly craved to be. I have never felt so hopeful, strong or as grateful to be alive as I am today. I am honored to be alive & to have the courage to share this with others so they too can start on their journey to a healthier & happier life.
I hope this messaged gets shared a thousand times over & can reach those who need this in their life.
Your life has purpose
Your story is important
Your dreams count
Your voice matters
And you most certainly are here for a reason! I hope this message gives you the hope you need not to give up, not to carry around shame, to let you know you can do this & you will get through this! You are not alone in your battle. I want you to know & believe you do have the strength to make it through anything ❤️