I remember as clear as day how I felt & the things that were going through my mind at this exact moment in February of 2014 on spring break & it brings tears to my eyes…but not for the reasons you may think. It brings tears of joy...relief...that I am no longer that person that thinks, nor feels those things I felt on that day & carried around with me for years.
I was walking down the beach headed back to our hotel room by myself & my husband secretly took this picture. We were staying on the beach with our three kids. I had a bathing suit under this cover up & I was incredibly uncomfortable. I remember my kids wanting me to chase them & play on the beach that day as they tossed the football back & forth…but instead I walked back to the hotel room, drew the curtains closed, looked in the mirror & cried.Yes I had a full blown petty party in my hotel room, while my family was having fun on the beach. I didn’t like the way I looked, the way I felt & who I had become. I was so upset I was letting all of those thoughts & feelings prevent me for enjoying my children. I was heavily medicated on medicines for depression & anxiety...just waiting for them to help make me happy again & change my life. Gosh I spent so many years hoping they would change my life....what was I thinking?????? After I cried a good cry, my head was throbbing…so I crawled into bed & slept the entire day away. After that vacation I came back home & on March 3rd 2014 I vowed that I was going to change my life. I promised myself & my family that moment on vacation would never happen again…I didn’t ever want to miss out on making memories with my family nor carry that baggage around in my head or my heart any longer.
So here is what I really want you to understand about my journey & the journey I want you to embrace. Losing weight didn't magically change my life & losing weight will not change your life either...just because you weigh less doesn't mean everything in your life changes.
Think back to a time in your life when you look at a picture of yourself & you can’t believe you weren’t happy with the way you looked? You would give anything to weigh that much again or be that size again because you would be happy….but would that really make you happy????
What this process has taught me is that if you truly want to change your life, you need to start with what you fuel you mind with. How you treat yourself & how you talk to yourself.
You also need to surround yourself with people that will support you, encourage you, cheer you on & hold you accountable every single day.
You don’t need a pill or a quick fix, you need a new lifestyle & that isn’t going to happen overnight. It will happen over time when you have all the right tools, support, accountability & you are ready to change.
The real transformation happens inside & that is the part I wish you could feel for five minutes, because if you could feel it you would not be hesitating or making excuses as to why you can’t join me.
You may not think this, so I am going to tell you this & would shout it off from the roof tops if to you if I could:
I want you to stop making excuses. There is nothing more valuable or worth more investing in then your health & well being. It’s time for you to love the skin you are in, learn to fuel your mind along with your body properly, surround yourself with supportive-positive people & start living the life you were meant to live. We all get one shot, don't you dare waste one more day not making the most of out this life.
If you need help making these changes, I would be honored to help you make this happen! My next virtual accountability group begins February 13th, get all the tools that I have used to make this happen for me, for you!