This Is What Happened When I Chose To Be Fearless
When I became a mom, I stopped pursuing my dreams....stopped day dreaming....I no longer had goals for myself...I truly felt my life should only be about my children & supporting my husband, it was no longer about me.
To live life no longer dreaming, to no longer have goals, to give all that I have to everyone around me created a life that left me with very little self worth.
I worked nights for 9 years waitressing & babysat during the day so I didn't have to put my children in daycare. I loved who I worked with & being able to be home during the day to raise my children, but I did not want to waitress & babysit for the rest of my life. My husband & I worked opposite of one another which left us crossing paths in the driveway & no time to be a couple. This is not how I wanted us to live our life.
In 2011 I decided to go back to school while I worked full time for interior decorating & get certified. I was a designer for Pottery Barn & eventually opened my own business. These were huge steps for me & I worked so hard to accomplish this all while working, taking care of my family & the last thing I wanted to admit to anyone was I did not feel fulfilled. I loved decorating, designing & helping others, but something was missing. I eventually told my husband I wasn't sure why I felt this way, but I did...a piece of me felt unfulfilled. I kept telling him I was craving more meaning in my life...
During this time I was also feeling horrible in my own skin, on a lot of medication for depression & anxiety & overweight/unhealthy. I started working out, eating clean, drinking Shakeology & getting support from my coach & accountability groups. I honestly started to feel the best I had felt in years, finally wasn't living life heavily medicated & fell in love with the entire process of getting healthier.
My coach knew how much I was loving everything & asked me if I would want to become a coach & work with her....I declined. Not once, not twice, but three times. Why? Well what would people think? I went back to school & ran my own business. I was going to throw that all away to take a leap of faith??? Fear got in my way & caused me to decline this offer three times. I kept joining accountability groups & kept falling in love with the process & the thought of pursuing coaching keep tugging at my heart strings. I thought about it for a long time, but fear kept me from saying yes until I decided to talk to my husband & share with him what had been weighing on my heart & mind. He said Katie I support you & if you want to take this leap of faith, then jump! So I no longer thought about it, pushed my fear aside & joined my coach.
Hands down that was the best decision I ever made. I no longer feel unfulfilled. I dream. I have goals. I have self worth. I have the honor of helping others personally & professionally & I have never been happier or healthier my entire life.
Things are happening in my life that I never imagined possible for myself & for my family.
I was invited to attend this leadership retreat with the other top coaches back in April & I still can not believe this is really happening in two months.
I look at my life right now & I am incredibly grateful my husband encouraged me to take this leap of faith. A huge thank you to my husband, family, friends, clients & my coach for believing in me, encouraging me & supporting me on this journey, I am truly grateful!
I have worked so hard to get here. I feel worthy. I feel empowered. I feel confident. I believe in this person I am becoming. I am proud of the hardworking mother I am & showing my children that dreams can come true when you work hard, believe in yourself & you never stop trying.
My message to you all is to be fearless & take that leap of faith with whatever has been pulling at your heart strings.
Thank you Melanie Mitro for inviting me to join you on this journey! This certainly wasn't what I had planned for a career, but I am so grateful this is how I get to live this life