So Thankful I Started This Journey
Last Thanksgiving I had a lot to be thankful for. Unfortunately my weight and how I felt about myself seem to trump everything, I wish it didn't, but it did. People that have never struggled with their weight can not even begin to understand the pain and burden it has on oneself. I remember clearly going into my closet and after trying to find something nice to wear to Thanksgiving dinner, I sat on my floor of my closet crying. Nothing fit. So I put on a pair of jeans that were skin tight and wore a long blouse un-tucked to hide the tightness of my pants and the bulge over my pants. I felt disgusted and did that stop me for filling my plate up and eating whatever I wanted....nope. I was in that mentality still that food made me feel good and I needed to eat because at the time it was the only thing making me feel good. So I look back at that day last year and what a feeling of relief, joy and appreciation of my body I have today. I am so thankful I am healthier. I am so thankful I recommitted to this Journey last March. I am so thankful that when I didn't see things happen as fast as I wanted too, that I didn't give up. What happened this morning when I went to find something to wear was exciting. I put on a pair of pants that were a size 10 and they fit. Not skin tight, but comfortably fit. Last year I bought a pair of pants after thanksgiving and they were the largest size I had ever worn-a size 16. I am so thankful I believed in myself, I pushed myself, I have surrounded myself with good positive people, thankful to have a family support me and thankful I started this when I did. I am thankful I can truly enjoy this holiday with my family, not rely on food to make me feel good and appreciate this healthy working body. I am still going to eat dinner tonight, but I will be mindful about the portions and I will enjoy a slice of pecan pie! That is the best part about what I am doing, I am not feeling deprived or starving-today is my treat day. Another huge change is that I am about to do is something that I have never ever done on Thanksgiving before and that's work out, not to mention a double workout. It is no longer food that makes me happy, it is my workouts that do that for me. That is a huge change for me and if I can do this, trust me anyone can. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone & I hope that if your feeling the way I was feeling last year, that you find the courage to be better to yourself. Everyone truly deserves to feel this good. If you need the support like I did, please reach out to me and I will be glad to support you any way I can.